Apologies for the delay in posting – have been in the process of moving house/city so have been spending the majority of my time wasting away on the IKEA website…. guilty!
Before I post on Step 5 of the Medical school admissions process, I thought I would quickly post on faith and how it’s helped me grow over the past year.
Born a Muslim, I’ve been raised in a family of faith and Islamic teachings, but I have often found it difficult to make that personal connection with God. Of course I always have believed in God and practiced the teachings of Islam to the best of my abilities, but I always felt that I wasn’t getting any of the ‘rewards’ or ‘blessings’ so to speak.
The second time I applied to Medicine, my mum told me to say a prayer called Istikhara – Muslims (and sometimes even non-Muslims!) perform this prayer in order to get some kind of guidance/reassurance on pursuing a certain path or making a certain decision. I thought I would give it a try, and for the first time in my life I feel like there is actually someone on the ‘other end of the line‘ so to speak, like there’s someone listening to me and hearing me out.
Within half an hour of saying Istikhara for the first time, my university tutor who I hadn’t spoken to in about 6 months actually rang me and asked me, “So what are your plans after you graduate, Medicine?” I took that as my first sign to go for it and start the application process. Since then, I started to pray the Istikhara before every major decision or step regarding my application, and I kid you not, I genuinely got a crystal clear sign after each prayer – freaky! I totally believe that my Istikhara is what facilitated the whole process and made it run so smoothly for me.
For me, all faiths begin with a touch of spirituality, and although I am still perhaps not at the level of other people, I do feel as though I have started my own journey towards something bigger and am so looking forward to where it will take me.
Rather than ending on a quote like I normally do, I thought I would paste the prayer below – please do not take offense (I am not trying to preach)! I am simply sharing some beautiful words which have helped me make my important decisions this year. I even shared it with some of my non-Muslim friends who have used it for themselves!
“O Allah (God)! I seek goodness from Your Knowledge and with Your Power (and Might) I seek strength, and I ask from You Your Great Blessings, because You have the Power and I do not have the power. You Know everything and I do not know, and You have knowledge of the unseen. Oh Allah (God)! If in Your Knowledge this action (say the decision you’re planning on making) is better for my religion and faith, for my life and end [death], for here [in this world] and the hereafter then make it destined for me and make it easy for me and then add blessings in it, for me. O Allah (God)! In Your Knowledge if this action is bad for me, bad for my religion and faith, for my life and end [death], for here [in this world] and the hereafter then turn it away from me and turn me away from it and whatever is better for me, ordain [destine] that for me and then make me satisfied with it.”